All the days of tomorrow

I am the only one who can speak for me so i'll tell it like it is 

I am gone

as of lately I am gone

I've begun to worry about life

not the lives of others 

not my own life

but what my life means to others

what my life is lacking in the eyes of others 

what makes me worth so little to what seems like everyone I know

Sure times are tough

they're tough for us all

I could get over it

but i'm done getting over it 

I am my own shack 

my own pool of infinite sorrow

and that must be what scares them off

it must be why six billion other souls go about their daily business

instead of finding meaning in me. 

I'm real. That's all you have to worry about. 

I don't drool over sitcoms 

I don't iron my clothes

and floss my teeth just to impress others

and I no longer hide what I feel for fear of judgment. 

I am reality.

If reality means I must spend ninety eight percent of my time living in my own prison

then i'll take it. 

you may fear me because i'm dramatic

you may fear me because everyday i'm a little bit closer to showing you who you really are

this is why you leave me alone.

you all leave me alone.

you can't take another second 

of stained teeth and scarred flesh

just like I can't take another second of fake love

love means you're there. 

No one is ever here. 

and that will be our secret.