It should have left me long ago

Instead it's hanging on as tight as it can. 




I'm not a fan of those who complain 


so when I do complain i'm worse off than when I started 

I keep telling myself that there is something important to look forward to 


but I've never looked forward. 




Once upon a time there was a princess. She had everything, which in turn, made her have nothing. 






Here is something else I don't like 



let me share it with you 




To those of you out there who see a neighbors tears and say something along the lines of "you have nothing to be depressed about. Look at the starving children in Africa" 


Or maybe you've even said something like this 




"There are so many people out there who have it far worse than you will ever have it." 




You are a very fortunate piece of work to not have to deal with something so tragic. 


But Let me educate you for a moment. 

It is not about surroundings    It is not about the food we may or may not have to put inside of our bodies   it is not about an external war between two countries    it is about an internal war inside of our minds    there is no control    we feel it because it's in there    this is not about comparison   because when our minds go dark there is nothing else that exists that we can even compare ourselves to   be fortunate that you are not a part of it  but be aware enough to not toy with something you don't understand  we are manipulated by our own brains   and that's it    there are two ways out of it    one way is to retrain your mind which can take decades  another way is to pretend it doesn't exist and live a life that isn't yours until one day the real one forcefully comes out         if you haven't experienced it then forget what you think you know          it's probably wrong anyways