An All Encompassing Fear

There is a significant detail that weaves its way around my entire world


It is what makes me 


I loathe that I am terrified from the moment I wake up until the moment I sleep


but it can't change


I can't change


It is all encompassing


you might think i'm crazy


you might say I sound crazy


I might even say I sound crazy


but how can anyone be crazy when feeling



something as real as this


it's all about beliefs and what you can see


the majority of the world believes in a god but they can't see a god


yet that doesn't make them crazy


so then why am I


I can hear them


I can feel them


but the world continues to say that monsters don't exist


so how do I live in a world where i'm the only one who can see what's really there


Pessimism has left me long ago


I look for light


I hope for it 


but the sun is dim in this gray area 


I can't even see through it most times


which is why I rely heavily on what I feel 


there is crazy


there is sanity


there is me


i'm in the middle of it all


what misfortune is this


to be so unclear to whether i've lost my mind or that I am just opening it up more to see the truth


what is real and what isn't 


I don't know anymore


does anybody